Don't know why

I came on today only to realize my blog was deleted! guess I blog so infrequently at times that it closed down. Weird.

Anyhoo.. well I'm 6 lbs down so far on my exercise/ weight loss journey. I've been at it for 21/2 weeks so I think that's pretty good. I've noticed my pants are fitting a little looser and I'm feeling stronger. My fiance remarked Friday I seem to have more energy. I definitely have lit the fire under my ass that's for sure. I've worked up to 40 min cardio and 30+ minutes of muscle work at least 3 times a week so far.. hoping to bump up to 4 days shortly,
And wouldn't you know AF suddenly made a return visit for the first time in quite awhile. (along with some major cramps..ouch!) but good seeing how I see the RE in less than 2 weeks. Here's to hoping for more positive changes coming soon.
I'll have to add a weight loss ticker here.. and a wedding ticker soon too. Yes we finally are trying to set a date for our wedding.. YEA!! looking at late next spring. *happy dance*

I'm a self professed bad blogger LOL

Amazing how time gets away from you! And yep my blog has once again fallen to the side along with it. I haven't blogged since November so lets see if I can do a catch up on all the the goings-on.
Our birthdays in December and Chistmas/ New Years was a huge bomb. I was sick and so dead tired it was awful for the first two weeks of December.. then Shane caught it and that killed the last two weeks. We literally did nothing for that entire month but be sick! In the meanwhile my future bil and his girlfriend got engagement on Christmas Day. It was a little weird on the timing considering my fiance proposed Christmas Eve last year. And his parents acted very differently to our engagement compared to theirs. Our's.. they were less than thrilled. We came over Christmas Day and all they could say was oh.. well that's nice. (and his dad could barely crack a smile) Theirs.. huge excitement. Screaming.. jumping up and down and champagne all around. (which I don't get considering they rarely call unless they want something and generally look down their noses at everyone and we're always doing favors and helping out and general are around and are pretty down to earth.. money and status don't impress me much)
At anyrate long story short.. we finally started seeing his parents in a different light and over time they're going to start seeing how we're not to be helping out or are around as much as we used to be.
So here came the new year and now I'm listening to bil's new fiance boast and brag on getting married this year and how big and beautiful a wedding they're going to have and how she's going to loose all this weight (and then she threw down a gauntlet she's yet to realize was picked up.. more on that later) And basically making me want to throttle her every time I'm around her. What can I say.. she's always boasting she's a huge bitch blah blah blah.. and always wants to one up everyone, including me which drives me batty cause I really don't like her at all to begin with so why would I care what she does.. until she decided to make it personal.
Ok so here's the gauntlet.. basically while she gave me a christmas present (belately cause of all the sickness in December) they gave me two nice tops.. and then she shits on the gesture by saying she has a hard time finding the biggest sizes and that I dress so "colourfully" that she didn't want to get me something that is "normal" And believe me she wasn't trying to be nice when she said it. I said basically nothing after that while she went on bragging about her new personal trainer and the small amount of weight she's lost off her fat ass. While I tried to not snarl at her. I thought you Bitch! you know what? I'm going to toss this weight and look far better than you on your damn wedding day! You want a fight lady you got one.. and I hit the gym the next day. Now I do have other reasons for loosing this weight.. namely I'm tired of being overweight, I want to have energy and be healthier and stronger and also I want to get my body ready cause I finally got an RE appt next month (hang on to your hats.. I'm going back to the fertlity clinic!) but mostly every damn time that idiot opens her big mouth I want her to know I'm doing kicking her fat ass every step of the way. She has no idea the kind of enemy she just made. So I've lost 5 lbs so far in a less than 2 weeks. I figure I'll not tell anyone on that side of the family and my fiance has promised to keep his mouth shut about this weight loss gauntlet I'm on. It's funny.. I want to healthy and sexy for my wedding/ honeymoon but when I'm in the gym seeing her face everytime she tries to brag and realizing she's done nothing compared to me drives me harder and makes me stay on the exercise equipment longer and longer every time. LOL

So I'll be posting in more often cause i want to keep track of this goal.. wish me luck!

first meeting with the dietitian

She seemed nice but definitely wants me to cut down the junk food, high fat and high sugared foods. She also showed me what I should be eatting portion wise and told me I definitely need to sdd more veggies, fruit and trade off the liquid sugar drinks and find healthier alternatives (slurpees and pre-made ice tea apparently are big no nos) it's going to take some adjustments seeing how I also have to deal with Shane and his lousy taste in food (that man eats like a 5 year old most days I swear) That and she wants me to slowly reintroduce some exercise back in (she's saying slowly mostly due to the extreme heat and humidity that's been going on this summer as well as I've been not been really physically active in years) but I guess consistancy is key to winning this battle. And I'm soo ready to dump some of this weight. That and as she scanned my medical history and all the recent tests I've had done, she realized my thyroid is yet again too low and my TSH levels are really high (she tried to explain it to me how that worked but odds are I'll have to see if I can figure it out online cause it was too confusing) I don't get why the heck my dr didn't have the medical centre call me and let me know I have to get an increase on the the thyroid meds again. HMMM..figures!
She also gave me a list of healthy alternative snacks (cause sometimes I just don't feel like making and eatting a whole meal especially in this heat) I also have to start keeping a food/ exercise journal so I can be accountable. Should be interesting to say the least.

Lost all my blog posts.. how'de I do that??

Ok I have no idea which button I pushed to make all those posts disappear (and I've spent a day or two trying to figure it out.. guess they're gone. But I'm a big believer in fate and signs, I guess this was one that it's time to wipe the slate clean and start anew. (not a bad sign) Tho I don't have my 101 things to do list anymore and I never bothered to write them out anywhere's other than here so I guess I'll have to start another one or a smaller one lol I think my blog had become way too negative anyways so probably for the best the blog posts are lost or gone.. I'll try to keep it more upbeat in the future.

IN health news: I go to see the dietitian next month (yea!!) I finally found one that's covered (most are private and cost an arm and a leg) so hopefully she can steer me on to a better track. I don't have a great track record with healthy eatting and portion control (not to mention what seems healthy one day is bad for you the next so a little diet debunking would be nice) And I definitely need to get back to the exercise part of my life.. seems every time I get really sick or something negative happens in our lives I crumble and get demodivated very quickly and that's definitely something I need to just keep working on.
I'm thinking with the fact I haven't had a pain killer in over 3 weeks now (and had some major head pain when bad storms rolled through the area) I'm doing pretty good. I don't miss them except when the pain gets bad. But I couldn't go taking them forever even tho those migraines may never stop now.

I'm doing good with the volunteering although I find it rather boring and unprogressive. I suppose because they get so many students doing their college co-ops there they really don't have a need for someone like me who's only just trying to figure out her next step (I'm thinking college but I want to make sure I know what I want to do before I start investing time and money to go forward with it) And it really doesn't look like I'll be able to get the gov't help I was hoping for to help financially to move ahead with things so I may have to break down and try to find something part time in the meanwhile if things keep going they way they are now.

Well my dryer just went off so I'm off to do more cleaning.. lol seems my Sundays are always cleaning and laundry lol